So what's been happening this week? Not much. Some stuff, but nothing much worth noting. I think collectively everything has finally caught up with us (the band) and we're just so tired. While we've been pretty much on it since high school, the past year has been NON-STOP. On top of life, jobs, whatever else, we went straight from one album into the next with absolutely no downtime. It was necessary, but I think now we've finally stopped that has hit us like a ton of bricks.
I'm glad that this year's extremely chaotic summer is now behind me. Now I feel like I've finally had chance to breathe and gather my thoughts, I do feel a lot more accepting of myself. And to be honest, after however many bizarre app-spawned dating encounters, I've realised that I'm just happier being single than dealing with all the fucking around trying to date people. Seriously, so tired of all that shit and that's me done.
Being my flavour of ADHD and BPD, I can find people's communication (or sudden lack thereof) so very confusing.
I'm a nice, genuine person but I totally get and appreciate that my personality, mannerisms, and a rather liberal use of the word 'fuck' will not be to everyone's tastes. Plus, the way I put drinks away probably can be quite alarming. But hey, it's absolutely a result of my ADHD and I'm not an asshole with it or anything; I just like to have a good time and enjoy myself, simple as. If anyone has a problem with that, fuck 'em.
For all my quirks and occasional self-loathing though, I do actually like me. I know I'm a good person, I do what's right, and I stick by people ride or fucking die. And also, for all of my shit I have to contend with, I am honest about myself and I do not try to pretend to be someone I'm not. If that's not good enough for people, then they're not good enough for me, frankly. I do not give a shit.
Apologies, don't know why I'm in the mood I feel like I need to justify my whole existence, but here we are.
On a lighter note, in the week I did some random modelling for some friends, so that was a nice pick-me-up at least.
Currently Listening To
Of Glory and Decay - Awakening
Michelle Branch - The Spirit Room
Die Spitz - Punishers (not got around to the album yet)
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